Si.n.g My. L.ov.e

Tuesday, May 25, 2004

personality check... i'm a care-taker... and have the habit to be like a mother hen, taking care of chicks... always defending others... worrier, and has the habit to make sure everyone feels okay... forgiving to others but not myself, even if it's the same mistake... but when stressed or not functioning properly, will go hay-wire... interesting point is.... the problem with my personality type is tt, when i go hay-wire, i really go all out... (oh and if u need to know, i was dong this personality thing on this book so tts what it wrote) it said when things go really bad, and cannot take it, something will happen and pple will say oh i think she has reached her limits... yuppz... (and i so fondly remember i did have such an explosion once in school, where i yelled at my classmate oopz..) anyway... they continued to talk abt what physical problems may affect such a person... which seems so true to me.. it read something like, for the women or this personality type, the places affected is the lower abdomen, lower back, intestines blah blah... and it's quite true... it read some more, err, u'll suffer from mestrual inrregularities, indigestion, constipation, anything to do with the stomach and intestines la.. coz the rest of the words were too bombastic... oh another thing which i read which made me understood something and open my eyes big about it is... when under stressed, may suffer from eating disorders (which i'm still trying to verify if i ever did, even like currently, when i'm under stress to actually slim down, believe it or not, but under stress from my mom, sis and frens... ) though i know tt i always had problems with eating, like if it's oily or too spicy i kinda will not take it... but tt's not eating disorder... but slowly i realise tt lately, some how, if i ate too oily stuff subconsciously i'll reject the food tt i just ate... now maybe tt's eating disorder? hmmz.. anyway continue... besides eating disorder, this personality type suffers from shopping disorders, sudden urge to shop... haha.. which i don't deny... there are mmts like after exams and stuff whereby i'll look at my sister and say jie let's go shopping... and i'll mass buy... and really mass buy... and agfter which i'll find a sense of satisfaction... another thing... if my room is too messy, i'll feel disorientated... and the last thing... when under stress, will suffer from depression... which i don't deny either... was reading my old diary and i realised how depressed i was as a kid... man even as i was reading like now, what i wrote when i was p 5 to sec 4 scared the hell outta me... i mean it was like, i saw how negative i used to be, like there was this black cloth covering my days... i mean i was writtig poems on ending my life?? i dont' even remember writting them... oh man... but well, i'm please to say, no more ending my life poems any more.. i'm a happier kid these days... though i do suffer from sudden dip in moods... oh well.. interesting book huh?? it's a colour personality book test... :)

And here the story ends.
10:46 PM