Si.n.g My. L.ov.e

Saturday, November 26, 2005

HA! anyway... am listening to a self composed music by dom... very interesting and talented person... though, haven't been hearing newer songs from him... but still.. talented!! i wish him all the best if he ever gets to the place he has always dreamed off... =)

And here the story ends.
4:16 AM

the exit of one, comes another... when one door closes another opens... what you see now, may not be what you see in future... opportunity is something you have to fight for and pray so hard... i believe in everything you do... 90% is hard work, 10% is prayer... as i was thinking about all the friends i have around me... who knows what will become of everyone in say 5 years?? some will have their breakthrough in career, some, probably job hopping.. and most, still schooling.. and ha! who knows, some of us would be hitched!! but, the important lesson of the day is to pick up from failures, from things that make u very very sad... and face the light of tomorrow... as some one told me... all things may fail you, but the moment you truly fail is when you yourself thinks you have failed... i know i have a couple of friends who, believe that they are a failure at everything... some how, struggling to see the light at the end of the tunnel... but, as long as you still struggle and reach out from tt end, there will definitely be someone there who is willing to give you a hand.. but if you don't even try yourself.. no one can help you... some of my very successful friends.. there's one thing tt i do admire about then.. they have courage, passion and the motivation to work towards that goal... i believe that, inside everyone of you and myself... there's a light inside of us... for those in despair... and whom i'm really concern about... u've gotta help yourself before anyone of us, can even give u that hand... it pains me to see tt light in u dimmer... geee....

And here the story ends.
4:14 AM

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

i truly think.. something is wrong with me.. for the better of coz, but.. i really think my tastebuds has changed... why? coz, i've been able to take milk and not spitting it out.. fresh milk not chocolate milk, and i think it tastes great... and, i've been eating green peas and think it taste great, vegetables, and carrots and all the nonsense.. cooked one of coz... and i really think all of them taste great... i've developed something against chicken... though it's still something i eat almost everyday, but i prefer to eat fish... weird right... from a ger who once staple meal is macdonalds.. to a ger who's chomping her vegetables up... *scratch head* perhaps the finishing touch final meal course of spring chicken did the drastic trick... anyway, christmas is coming!!! and my exams are next week.... and amazingly, my room is going to be neat and tiny... whenever i feel stress, i pack a part of my room.. and looking at how neat it is... and once i'm done clearing the mess in my cupboard... i'll start clearing my books outside... it's really quite amazing... i can even see floor space in my room... haha... another thing to be happy about... my maple character is now... a good level 30! going 31!! so happy.. =) okay, time to head back to the books!

And here the story ends.
8:38 PM

Sunday, November 13, 2005

today, marks my first time serving in lol as drummer... amazingly, by the grace of god, it went, pretty okay... though, there were hiccups here and there. u know, many people say, wah, first time serve not bad.. but actually... i did serve before in drums, but it totally screwed up.. mainly because, i had no confidence, and i knew too little to even play one song right.. minus the band pieces of mulan and abba gold of coz... tt one got train so not a problem... i think what i truly lack is creativity and confidence... and many many practices... i was kidding with my mum today, tt i feel i'm better in drums then piano.. i mean, okay... i'm still an amateur in drums, and tt my skills at piano far surpasses my skills in drums. but one think i notice is, i've struggled with piano all my life to play to right key, at the right time. and i do not have a gift of hearing and playing it out immediately.. but when it comes to drums, its like once i know the beat, i know the beat end of story... and a lot about feeling the rhythm i think it's something that either you have or you have to train a lot... oh well... but i love both of the instruments.. no competition there... and i must admit, i still need to improve on my skills and knowledge.. i think if mr. seah heng loong john didn't teach me, or at least impart some knowledge, i wont' be able to play for nuts today either... i need guidance. maybe tts whats wrong with my piano... i've no one to look to for improvement!!!! since day one, i throw u one times piano and a score book... without chords.. play for me the song... i mean, i'm like... wah..... i'm not tt gifted alright.... so it was hard practice... but i think i still suck at jazz playing of drums.. tt one super high level... really truly madly deeply, might have something to do with my millitary drums training.. i can play beats that are on beats very well... but off beat must practice super hard... anyway... i really HAVE to thank god... it was an obstacle to sit there and play, coz of prior failure before... before i played, i told god this... ha ha.. so tt u know he wont' blame me if i play wrongly.. i said, god be it good or bad, it's all for you... and, when the music played and everything, just this feeling in my heart, let the spirit flow.. just let it out.. and then it just did.. i guess, it's not me, but tt father was in the house today... seriously really truly... i've NEVER ever worshipped while playing drums before.. but today was like woah... could feel HIS presence all around the room... it was like the spirit took my hands, and played while i'm in the sweet aura of god's presence.. honestly, if u ask me.. i cant' really recall what i played for the slow song.. coz, i was singing most of the time.. and yes, closing my eyes while beating the drums... HE was so real... so very real.. and the sermon today was so powerful.. until i can suck thumb and be a little kid again... i've been worried over my next year's study.. so much tt i've forgotten what it is like to have faith in him. if i say i've faith in him, then why should i cut down on serving times??? or, why do i want to pull out from the activities?? if i have faith in him, i shoudl change my lifestyle for him, and he will provide for me... do i believe in tt??? or have i forgotten i once believed in tt... hee ee.. anyway.. i ought to go back to do my paper... =)

And here the story ends.
7:01 AM

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

when was the last time i stepped into town? oh yah, yesterday.. but dont' think i went there to shop, i went there for school... actually, i've likened the idea that SMU is in town... ignoring the price of food, coz i can always bring food to school, and now there's water cooler i need not spend money on water... it's becoz.. now i no need to walk so far from one school building to another like in old campus... and, the bus 14 stops directly in front of SESS so i'm always on time for classes if i catch the bus at the correct time... and u know what, orchard road is dolled up for christmas again! so pretty.. so fuzzy warmly.. BUT.. i have no time to enjoy that till i finish my exams.. talking about exams... i'm so gonna pull my hair out... i've 4 subjects to study for, all heavy subjects, and i've a mediation session to carry out... i've 3 term papers to hand up next week, and... this rmss is really driving me nuts, in order to know how to do my term paper, i have to sit down and read my textbook once before i can even start... and the awful thing is, boss has been opened! for those who do not know what is boss, its basically a bidding system for you to bid for your classes, looking at my next year's time table.. if its successful, i've only one thing to say... NO LIFE... why? look at the exam time table... week 5, week7, week10, week13, and major one at week15 and week 16.... basically, i'll be mugging every single day of my life... before week 5, there's this very important thing called chingay... and something more important called my 21st birthday.. thankfully, my birthday is before my exam... so... i can take a week to chill and celebrate my rite of passage to adult hood... being 21 means i can be entitled to my goodies like if i win a lucky draw, i can say, yes i can claim it coz i'm above 21... but it'll mean i'm too old to try the slide downstairs my house... unless i've a kid with me... you know, i can't tahan the thought that uni is so much tougher the jc... jc, still have time to laugh and play, and relax.. uni, the stress is like mounting... i'm way below avergae in my grades and if i dont' do something about it, i can kiss graduating good bye, or even! i can't get honours... sigh sigh sigh.. anyway, i'm baack to studying...

And here the story ends.
6:33 PM