Si.n.g My. L.ov.e

Saturday, January 07, 2006

The fragility of friendship.. even as i fast approach what is known as the key to freedom.. it suddenly dawn on me, and frankly speaking i am a little shocked and stunned and disappointed to know who are your friends to keep and who are not... people who claim to be your best friend good friend, may not be afterall a true pal... thinking about it, what on earth do i want for my 21st birthday.. and some claim that i have everything under the sun, what do i need? frankly speaking... it's not that i go for branded stuff like i wish and hope for... i once told dom, if ever... ever... i was like the size of normal singaporean girls, like an xxs or xs, god, i would not be buying stuff like mango and zara... i can even buy a t=shirt at a road side stall! it's just that, i like clothes that fit me that can go with me at least 2 years down the road with me... like, u know what's the diff between levi's and a normal pair of jeans? levi's can go with me for 5 years down... even though, it's steep intially and most people are like wow.. levi's but truth is i have worn my levi's for at least 5 years, and i only have bought one pair of levi's for myself after saving up for eons of years... the rest is my sister's and it's pass me down... but it's becoz my size, does not fit a regular size ger's t-shirt at a road side stall... so for clothes, i have no choice but to pick in terms of quality... and that is why, i am selective of what i choose.. and it's not by choice my things are usually found in zara or mango... i just look kiddish in things like op and i itch in materials found in bossini... i have sensitive skin for goodness sake! anyway, back to why i'm utterly sad and disaapointed... friends who claim they are your bestest friend seems to fall when it comes to your birthday.. and worst is 21st brithday.. i think i'll celebrate my next brithday and a big one when i'm age 50... so for goodness sake! it's like one of the last brithdya to remember before i get married... u know what i seriously hate.. i hate it when you do make sure that you put in effort and spend your last dollar sharing a present for a friend even though, i'm not very close to some... and, paying in like, a month later becoz i've no money to eat... and what do i get in return? people who claim to be your great friends are not even willing, and say.. sorry pal, i've no money to even fork out 10 bucks.. i know, certain friends of mine cannot afford to pay that sum... but i know others who can and are not willing... great friends of yours...they claim.. i'm utterly embarrased by myself to have established such a poor relationship with people, or have been misguided to think they are my pals who would stick to me... that for 21st brithday and they claim to be your great pals mind you.. that they are not willing to fork out 10 bucks... okay friends i understand.. coz, not so close.. but close friends?? very great ideal friends?? ha... only on the surface right?? so it is thus. on my fast approaching 21st brithday... i truly understand. that some so-called great friends are seriously not so great after all... and some really okay friends, i think they even treat me better! and i'm so gonna cherish these people who really tried and will make my birthday a little different... u know, at the end of the day, it's not that i look at the finances and say, wow, if you give me 20 bucks birthday present i'm going after you coz, i'm after your money.. but it's the thought and the heart to want to make your 21st birthday a memorable one... and thus, my so called great friends who are no so willing to spend on my 21st brithday.. dont' think i'll do the same for you back.. coz, mayeb we aren't so great pals after all... this is called betrayal and trust... so sad so very sad... and to think i knew that this was coming, since last year.. coz, no one bothered to celebrate my brithday... and promised to celebrate it for me this year... i know you pals, and watch it.. coz, i;m very very utterly sad and dissapointed, and it'll show... but for the rest of my friends... whom i've forged a bond with, and i know you guys to be very very nice to me... i'll write another blog entry about you guys.. =) i promise!!!

Si.n.g My. L.ov.e

And here the story ends.
8:45 PM