Si.n.g My. L.ov.e

Thursday, March 02, 2006

hey beautiful people. moving on. injecting new spirits in my life, it's called blog therapy.

even as i embrace a whole set of freshness of life being 21 and above, i leave behind the past.

it has been really lovely, this journey of affettuoso-grandiso. fabulicious. thanks for walking with me this path.

Si.n.g My. L.ov.e

And here the story ends.
9:55 PM

all cries out. Never again, will I shed tears for you. 2 great promises broken. But you, remember what you’ve done. Oh god, please give me strength to face that light on that day. The final moments. The deed is done.
Si.n.g My. L.ov.e

And here the story ends.
9:43 PM

Sunday, February 12, 2006

a lot of people always ask me.. why don't you wear those accessories that you make yourself.. well, i honestly do... i just dont' wear them all the time.. you know i think it's the same idea as why do hairdresser always have the worst hair, (though not very true these days) or like how come the dress makers are always the worst dresser; or ah.. this one is the classic case. how my dematologist has really never kept up with maintaining her looks... making accessories are like a passion for me, really derive a lot of fun and satisfaction from it. but, a personal practice is that i do not wear my own accessories all the time, so as not to be trapped in that creativity space. to move on, seek more inspiration. explore the different types of patterns and design out there that i can link to accessories. but of coz, i still wear my own, =) after all, they are my love and joy.. haha.. there are so many things to create and so little time... not to mention, it's really a high-end and labor intensive enterprise... no kidd' about that. and that i do remember reading about such enterprises that you'll only break even after 2 years... so you can imagine how draining resources this hobby is... haha... yea, so... it's simple.. why i don't always wear my own accessories? just want to be always inspired, and not get stuck within that blop of creativity... must always renew and rejuvanate then you can always be at the edge...

Si.n.g My. L.ov.e

And here the story ends.
6:42 PM

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

the thought for the week is.. how much do you know about the entire issue of christianity? how much do u know about the facts in the bible? or is it even accurate? gee... i seriously have no idea. i do know that, in an era that we live in where we are so dependent on what other people tell us, because we are so lazy, what on earth are we consuming? u know someone once told me, it' a very dangerous thing that i'm studying social science.. i now know why, u question everything you see, even the theories themselves, you question things you do, u analyze. gone are the days whereby you're a cute little girl or boy and just taking in whatever they tell you. u know, i was quite surprised when a professor told me that in the europe, there are so many churches, BUT... the amount of goers are so little... to think that people keep thinking that christianity is a european religion. i'll like to think it as a religion coming from the middle-east... since it christ was born in bethleham. to think about it, when was christ really born? i used to think it was 25th december till rui told me, it's not. it's just for convenience. and having thought about it for sometime, it's quite freaky. how much do i know about the god i'm worshipping? and how much do i know what i've known for in my life about christians? what on earth am i doing? it feels really queer, coz it's like.. i'm doing things based on what my pastors tell me. it's like a silent suicide bomber... believing in group thinking... i think even as i'm saying this, a lot of my seniors in church would say, coffee and tea? haha.. like always.. the problem about it is... in a group, it's either you belong in the group or you're out. and the thing about a group too, is they will convince you to be in their group. pressure etc. so what happens is they will say, oh u're spiritually dry. u've gone off the course. and if you doubt it, they'll say oh u must have faith! u little faith. of coz you won't see any results! then they'll quote you some testimony. it's quite funny, coz... after a while, i just sit there and observe. and it irritates me, coz, i always link stuff that i've learn of group thinking etc on what i see. and can quote what they say, and what they do to like group thinking. and you become wary of it. but seriously, how sure are u on the religion you are in? i'm not... i still do believe that there is a god. but, i'm not too sure what i'm doing. like, tidings, they say have to give. and it's quoted in the bible. but, how sure are you that it really writes you must pay 10%? thinking that we are a society that treats everything literally, and have long forgotten the language of the past. it's like taking an item out of context. as i you all know, the language in the past, is so different. for all you know, when they say 10% they mean 30%! 1% or a sum? it's just unknown. in all organizations you must have a charasmatic leader, in this sense it's a pastor. a person of knowledge and wisdom. or so as they say. and what is different about a religious leader and a normal leader? a relgious leader is one thought of being a person chosen by god, and has a lot of knowledge far more then anyone.. and so we do not question. okay i think i might just banged for saying such stuff, especially in singapore. but it's for the sake of the country's citizens, were we love harmonious, and it's not good to upset other races, cultures, and relgion. that is perhaps why singapore has been so successful so far. which i'm thankful for, can u imagine having riots everyday> i think we'll still be living in poverty if it's like that. but anyway back to my issue. it's not that i've anything against pastors, church, christians or any other religion. it's just that, we have to think what we're taking in. we should not be brain-washed to an extent of irrationality. and i'll be on a journey of finding out, when is the exact birthday of jesus?
it's just so interesting.. aha
Si.n.g My. L.ov.e

And here the story ends.
7:15 PM

Sunday, February 05, 2006

i think i've fallen in love with foreign films. not the typical blockbuster hollywood films. but those low budget films. be it, in japanese, korean, french etc... my favourites are still japanese and french. somehow, they are way much better then those 100 US million budget films. some how, as they have a story plot etc... which is marvelous. my favourite movie which has been ranked to my top fav A.I, is be with me. a japanese film which is intriguing, moving, and totally sweeping me off my feet . there are indeed a few movies that i really like so far, that most of them is not highly publicised in singapore. like crash for example, it blew my mind away. now watching this weird how called big girls dont' cry, it's a little ironic and very different from normal films. but the whole point is, i truly like films that are different. =)

Si.n.g My. L.ov.e

And here the story ends.
7:37 AM

Thursday, February 02, 2006

you know, there was this friend of mine, who commented that i dont' dress up to go school.. haha, then i was thinking about it... i think i really am bo chap when it is comes to going to school. must carry this, that, and still must dress nice.. hmmz... haha... but yea, it got me to think... and i think it's a respect to dress appropriately... as i grow older and have reached the age of 21... (which honestly, feels no different then being 20) start thinking stuff like, what is your own branding... (sound so smu line) but seriously, how you dress, how you portray yourself, what is your personality... hee hee.. then u know, i've so many sides... the infamous bo-chap side which is, t-shirt and jeans and my fav birkens. so typical... and it's not like your pretty femine t-shirt but more like, band t-shirts, my fav being one from the far east records. and, then i have my causal i love my skirts side, where i pair more feminine shirts with skirts and yes, my fav birkens. but truly, if you ask me... i do have another side which not many pple see... i love goth! if i could, and if eye-liners were more washable, i'll wear eye liner everyday. maybe it's a pssing phase of life, but. i do have something abotu black lace, and things that is like goth. you get the point. i hate the angelic looking outfits actually. okay, not to such an extent of hate. but, u know... if life is all about being angelic, i think it's a bit imbalance. like, if i dress all girly all the time... i can't think myself of the sweet ger spinning around in all feathers... erm, okay.. what i mean is, i prefer personality in the outfits... i don't like corsets though.... too kinky for me... and, i think the tribal style is so yesterday some how... which is something i used to like when i was in primary school. yes, primary school. the batik skirts, the sea side look. yes it's yesterday thing liao... i love accessories which speak for themselves... i know i do make jewellery, but from what i've learn in class from prof liang thow yick, you must internalize knowledge before you can create new inspiration. basically mean, i need to seek inspiration then i can create new ones. what better way then to indulge in jewellery, and i've 2 bold pieces. though if i ever wear them to church, i'll be deem... hmmz, no i'll probably have to go for coffee and tea... but yes, my fav is this one which is purple beads with black ends, and blue feathers. and the best part? it has a dimonte cross. when i saw it, i knew i was going to buy it. it was just screaming my name. but no no, i can't wear it to church, if not there would be some talk that i'm rebellious or something, which in no way is... but, u never know... anyway, i truly like bold accessories and it has to be unique. and i love chinese motifs. like there is a chinese silver motif necklace that i bought in far east for a steal. by accident as well. but i do like it... but the whole entire idea is... as you grow older, you try to define and have different taste for outer wear. and by dressing nicely, and something you like, you will feel better and in a good mood! i know i can't wear tube tops for nuts, but... i know what i love. lace, silk and goth, and MUST be tastefully done, well-cut and sits well. there is a thin line being sexy and sleezy... truly... there is... u're only young once... if there is a time to be bold, it's now... oh and did i say, i am contemplating to highlight blue?

Si.n.g My. L.ov.e

And here the story ends.
8:43 AM

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

happy birthday to me!!! ha ha.. it's quite hilarious, but i'm gonna turn 21 in my international econs class, since i was born at 11.34 am... so... yuppz.. and my class ends at 11.45 ha ha ha...

but it doesn't feel any much difference, except 21 comes with more responsibilities, like now i must remember to vote during elections, if not i might get jailed...

and now i can register my future businesses by myself and remember to pay my taxes, if not i would get fined...

and now whatever i do, i can get jailed... so come more reponsibilities.. ha ha..

the saving grace? the prof is funny...

and tt'll mean i can spend my 21 birthday totally from morning.. =)

Si.n.g My. L.ov.e

And here the story ends.
5:45 PM

my 21st birthday is turning out to be a night mare... the party went great... but, as i'm closer to 12 hours to being 21... i'm getting even more paranoid... maybe i should just spend the hours by myself, at some sea side looking at the sea, to reflect on life and people around me... throw away all expectations and see what happens... u know, actually i did want to spend the time alone... decided to catch a movie by myself after school.. orh, not to mention, i need to go school from 830 - 330. then thereafter i shall see how... so what happens if, i decide to disappear for the night, forgoing the dinner.. orh not to mention, my parents actually didn't want to celebrate my birthdy on the actual day... wanted to celebrate either on thursday or saturday... then... i think aiyah no point la... actually i'm already not in a mood to celebrate my birthday already... anyway, back to my original plan.. wanted to catch a movie alone... then after that i go esplanade take pictures of the setting sun.. go to the coffee club some where to eat a cake and then i can prepare to go home... or, going to sentosa is not a bad idea also.. but i'll just be carrying a lot of bags... then... my parents decided that i was grumpy and decided to celebrate my birthday for me... and then it spoilt rui's plans also... gee... maybe i should just embark on my lonesome plan... called reflections of adulthood... just so sad... and to think i was suppose to be happy about it... argh... Si.n.g My. L.ov.e

And here the story ends.
7:25 AM

Monday, January 09, 2006

i think... my previous blog entry made a few ripples... but oh well.. anyway, change mood a bit from betrayal of trust to something sobby... u know i just finished watching this show called be with you... man, it's now next to my favourite movie of all time called A.I the only difference is this time i could hold my tears in... unlike in A.I for no apparent reason, everytime i watch it i cry buckets of uncontrollable tears... but, the thing about be with you is firstly, i think i can appreciate the spoken language of japanese to such an extent that, sometimes i can understand what they are talking about... thanks to rui's dosages of animes... ha ha.. anyway, the thing about be with you is that it boils down to simple story plot... unlike the hollywood's action pack film that sometimes have no story plot.. be with you is something that kept me at my seat for the 2 hours... it's enchanting.. like u wonder, why she can't remember a thing... why she fulfilled her promise of coming back after she died... why she knew when she was going back.. why she gave her son a story of the mom going to the galaxy etc.. it was soemthign that i kept thinking about... and not to mention, the actress was really pretty! okay, and the son was so cute!!! like so adorable.... but, truly... it was a magnificent film that i do not regret buying... there's just no words to describe it.. it's not as drama as lovers in paris, but still it made a greater impact... and it's no way cheesy at all.. just beautifully written and filmed.. brilliant

Si.n.g My. L.ov.e

And here the story ends.
4:57 AM